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Girl interrupted
Have you ever been cut off mid-sentence? Or been telling a story to someone and next thing you know they’re telling their own story? Or have you ever been asked a question, to which you actually wanted to answer, but you were never given a chance? Let’s face it, we all have at one point or another, and therefore we have all felt the loneliness and disappointment that comes with it. The past week or so I’ve been thinking way to much, more than normal and I’ve come to the conclusion that those first three questions I asked, the ones that leave you feeling depressed and alone, that’s pretty much been my life for the last 4 years. Anytime I’ve wanted to say something, or ask something or just engage with someone, I’ve been cut off, shutdown and forgotten about. Just tiday i can think of 3 times when it happened and today is rated very high on the anti social scale. Imagine if i was acrually trying! After 4 years I think I’ve just had enough, and subconsciously, I’ve just closed down. ‘Cut off to the point of not even bothering to start’ - a phrase I thought up that actually brought me to tears, it was that true. Im not sure if anyone else can relate but I know that it is definately an issue for me. One that will affect me atleast for the foreseeable future, and a problem I need to overcome. I’ve been trying to narrow down how it got so bad and I’ve come the conclusion that its because of those around me. The people I both choose to associate with, and those I’m forced to be around, They’re so used to being the ones I listen to. They’re used to me being there when they need to vent. They aren’t however used to listening to me. Or letting me vent. Or even noticing when I do, truly, need to talk. I’m not saying that I’m not at all to blame. My naturally shy nature was always going to be an issue. I just never thought I wouldn’t have anyone to balance it out; I never thought I’d have no one to listen to me.
